Eat Run Lose

I eat, therefore I run.

school daze April 2, 2011

Filed under: fearlessness,music — eatrunlose @ 6:10 pm

so where have i been?

the year of fearlessness has begun and is in full swing. starting in january when i had surgery to better myself in every possible way (no, i did not have plastic surgery!). in february i was recovering from said surgery, so that was a wash. in march, i started back to school.

when i was going for my undergrad, i studied music. i am a vocalist. i love to sing at the top of my lungs and to perform and make a general fool of myself, and so make something beautiful come out of a person who did not think much of herself was astounding to me. but, somewhere along the line i began to resent music. it became too technical. i became depressed. i changed schools and moved across country thinking a fresh start would jump start my love of singing. it did not. i became even more depressed. i was going to school for my family, because it was expected of me.

so, i stopped.

fast forward a few years later.

right before husband and i were married i started to think about going back to school. i wanted to do something that interested ME. something that i wanted to learn, then the most unexpected thing happened. i gained inspiration from what could have been a horrible tragedy. my niece emma became terribly ill and ended up in nationwide children’s hospital. she was there from the end of october until the begining of december. after she was released from PICU, she went into a rehab unit. in this unit, she was assigned a to many therapists mainly a physical therapist, and a massage therapist. the later is what inspired me. i wanted to go back to school for medical massage therapy. it took me over a year to get my bum into a classroom.

but i am there know, and that has made all the difference.

oh, and emma? she is doing fantastic! she is running jumping climbing trees with her fellow 9 year olds. 


year of fearlessness December 20, 2010

Filed under: fearlessness — eatrunlose @ 2:43 am

what is the year of fearlessness? well, it is my pledge to my husband and myself to treat 2011 as such.

i consider myself pretty shy. although my family and friends might disagree. i have always turned a deaf ear to my inner self that wants to go zip lining, the inner self that wants to fly to Hawaii and try surfing, the inner self that wants the lead in the musical, but will never audition, the inner self that wants to run.

i have a secret confession. i have always wanted to be a runner. (stop laughing)

i see people outside in my neighborhood running. i see my sister pick it up as a way to de stress and i see her run a 5k and a half marathon. i see myself attempt it, look ridiculous and stop 3 weeks later (and get accosted by a WAY over zealous gym rat asking me if i will need CPR. i got your CPR right here, jerk).

the major flaw in my running plan, i am overweight. i have asthma. i look like i am having an epileptic fit when i attempt it. see what i mean? thus the year of fearlessness. i am going to conquer the world…or at the very least columbus, oh. so here i am, about 2 weeks before the new year and I am planning with my husband on what we want to do. i am transforming my life one day at a time, and i am not looking back. but before i do…i need a drink

ps. i am not totally convinced fearlessness is a word, but since spell check did not pop up, i am going with it.